Nathrania

I’m still very undecided about this all really. The whole feelings for Hec thing may get in the way for a while, so I guess it’s just testing the waters / casual flings for the moment. I don’ think that’s a bad thing at all. It’s been a year now since I’ve had a 1 nighter (I know - how amazing is that). I don’t even know if ‘ve still got it. I can imagine it may take a while to back into the swing of things.

Something unrelated, but need need to get it out there, had an interesting discussion with a friend they other day. Kind of pushed them on an issue to get their thoughts and got a bit of info, but could tell they were uncomfortable so unfortunately didn’t get to discuss it further. Has cleared my mind up a bit, but there’s still a few things I want to ask / get off my chest but I’ll guess that will just have to wait for a while. Who would have thought that life comes in shades of grey?

A great thing to come out of all this I suppose is that my friends never fail to surprise me. I knew they would all be supportive etc, but some have definitely gone well beyond the call of duty and I love them so much more for that. I owe them a great deal and am making sure they know just how much so once I get back on my feet. I also start back at work again tomorrow! So I’ll once again have purpose, structure, and most importantly of all - money - back in my life.

Money related things that can now be completed:

• Pay Hec back in full
• Finish buying the rest of Tara’s birthday present
• Hopefully live it large on the uni holidays
• Pay off my layby at General Pants
• Buy Hec a new pair of headphones (I accidentally broke his old ones…)
• Get a new battery for my laptop
• Finally get a new phone (yes this is so far off I know - but a boy can dream)